I lost my best friend / almost bf 😭

Hello I’ve never posted on Reddit before but I’m really desperate I’ve been having vivid dreams every night about my friend he’s names Izzy we met on amino , at the time I had just lost my bf and Izzy was nice and friendly and wasn’t the usual creep u find on the internet in fact he was my age and pretty funny we talked for a year and one month ( I know not a long time ) but we got really close he was my support and I was he’s I stop him from committing he and also stopped me from committing I really liked him he had a bunch of cats and long curly hair and then one day he confessed to me and asked me to be he’s gf and I said yes but the next day he’s account got banned and I never heard from him again ( some info ) I should have looked on amino earlier because it was my only source of info on him but now the app doesn’t work also I know he probably just sounds like he blocked me and I know this doesn’t sound like a big deal cause it was just an online friend ship but I really miss him all I have left is he’s old insta user should I just give up on finding him 🤧