Blurred lines with Infatuation and obsession

So basically, I’m slowly becoming obsessed and absolutely ruining my mental state again cause of said person we’ll just call I/O, I/O is a celebrity and is a pretty mid known person his a streamer on the side which slightly fueled my obsession for him

I used to watch his stream quite often but due to him being from America and I’m in Asia I can’t usually watch and it’s been eating me alive and making me go insomniac, basically scrolling through stuff about him and god it’s all I even do even through classes instead of studying

I’ve been in my “self care” phase again, where all I do is just over perfect myself just for him, by starving, sleeping late, wearing makeup. mind you I don’t have the confidence of posting myself so it’s basically just for all for nothing.

And don’t get me started at the ships, ai photos and comments about him, and I absolutely hate it so much, since his basic the center of my world right now

And if there’s no new content about him I basically just look through his friends and family’s post and their repost to see if their something about him, collecting all the information I can off him.

I can’t help but want to just confess to him And it’s all I can fantasize and think about doing it and I just feel sick since I know if I ever did become their partner I’d just become worse.

I have been having excessive mood swing ever since I had a obsession with him, and I know this isn’t gonna end well for me since I basically study psychology and I’m basically showing signs of obsession and it’s not good.

Hopefully this doesn’t taken down due to it being somewhat harmful.