Should I repeat Class 11? PCMB messed me up mentally and academically and Wanted to repeat class 11 and change to computer.

My_qualifications - 92% in class 10th boards.

I’ll be brutally honest because I’m exhausted and done pretending everything is “manageable”. I took PCMB in Class 11 purely out of ego after doing well in Class 10. I wanted to do something “different” from my family (all engineers/IT). Worst decision of my life. This entire year was basically wasted. • Maths: changed tutors 3 times because they kept bailing last minute. I have zero grip on trig and almost half the syllabus. • Physics: completely my fault. I messed it up. Didn’t study, teacher came once a week, no tests, no accountability. • Chemistry: slow as hell — teacher came once a week + my procrastination = disaster. • Biology (ISC): absolute hell on earth. I massively underestimated how dense it is. I genuinely can’t handle it. To make things worse, I joined PW NEET coaching from the start, which honestly made everything worse. Between school, tuitions, and ~5 hours of PW daily, I had zero time for self-study. Instead of fixing things, it buried me deeper. Our school also decided to be geniuses and conducted final exams insanely early — 5th January. If this was Feb like most ISC schools, I could’ve salvaged a LOT. December was completely wasted because I wasn’t even at home most of the time. I am currently giving my Class 11 finals and I do not want to continue Biology anymore. I want to switch to PCM + Computer, and preferably change boards to CBSE because it aligns way better with JEE and is honestly more manageable. That means repeating Class 11. And yes, I know Reddit hates that idea. But here’s the thing: I know myself. Carrying this backlog into Class 12 will destroy me mentally. I already have a history of panic attacks and breakdowns around exams. I’m already burnt out at 16 ffs. I also feel insanely guilty. I feel like I completely wasted my dad’s money — school fees, tuitions, and worst of all a 2-year PW NEET course that I might not even use. That guilt is eating me alive. My mom is extremely hesitant and keeps saying I’ll “waste another year”. She has agreed to talk to external evaluations / teachers and wait for my dad (he’s currently out of the country till end of the month). So nothing is finalized yet. I’m not asking for validation. I want brutally honest advice: – Is repeating Class 11 to change stream actually reasonable in this situation? – Or am I delusional and just trying to escape responsibility? – Has anyone here repeated Class 11 and not screw it up again? Please don’t give generic “just grind bro” advice. I’ve tried that. It broke me.