I ask for help on Reddit and write details because I have no one to help me

I feel like I hate my life so much and I don’t know what to do…. I wrote some posts because I’m thinking a lot today… I hope anyone will respond because even my friends aren’t responding. They are all so busy, they don’t have 10 minutes in their day to call me. I feel like a burden to them and myself and i feel one of the less fortunate people in life….

I just wish I didn’t have a great mom because now I have to live without her. I’m going crazy because her spoiling me / making me get used to let her do everything even when I’m an adult, is now only making me feel so guilty and like a loser. I feel so heavy now