Feeling a bit off 20 F (medico)

20 F Feeling kinda off idk y tomorrow is my birthday but idk if i m really excited. I don’t actually have close friends or someone in college or here to celebrate it with n i do have 2 friends but they are far away one of which keeps forgetting my bday is tomorrow. My brother would make my day special for sure. But idk its just the birthday pressure u get back of the mind for things to go good and special without even thinking u are expecting anything.