eating

I have a problem with food. A serious problem with food.

It's not just that I eat "more" and binge-eat everytime i can, but what I eat on these binges.

I have coeliac desease, and I can't eat gluten. I can't digest it, and (apart from the stomach ache i get if i ate gluten) i can also have more serious problems, like osteophorosis(?) or even cancer.

But, normal food is just SO good. Sometimes I don't even have my food, bc you need special shops that sells gluten free things, so i just stare at my family's food and eat it secretly.

I do not know how to stop.

I was "clean" for 3/4 days, but today i ate it again. I put my finger into mi throath and threw up everything. Now I just dont feel good bc i ate gluten again, but also because i threw up on pourpose.

I just do not know what do to.