Accepting reality

At this point ima just accept that I’ll be lonely for the rest of my life. No one wants anything to do with me and I’m tired of it.

The amount of ppl that has walked in and out of my life is uncountable. All I have is the internet since I barely leave the house and I’m homeschooled. I try to make friends online and they all end up ghosting me. The same ppl who ask for friends be the same ones who ignore ppl who want to talk to them. Why even bother wasting peoples time then?

All I want is a genuine conversation and connection with someone but everyone else wants someone to talk to just to kill time. Or until there group of friends is available. I’m nothing but a bonus friend to ppl. This might be kinda selfish but idc, I want someone who only has ME as a friend, I don’t like when my friends have other friends. When ur my friend ur MY friend only.

I’ve tried many many times and gotten no where. I’ve heard the same advice from ppl and nothing, nothing at all. So no I don’t want ur pity. No I don’t want ur advice. I don’t want to be told lies anymore. Stop sugar coating everything. No one wants to be friends with a loser like me and that’s my reality, simple.