Someone asked me how my baby’s doing.

I hadn’t seen them since last year. I was a teacher and one of the parents of the children saw me and my husband and tried to congratulate us and ask about the baby.

So at the nail salon, in front of a bunch of people, I had to kindly tell her that we lost the baby. It was so awful. She apologized and said the school never told them why I left, and gave me a hug. I know she meant well, but it was soul crushing, even 9 months later. And this is why I got a new job this year, needing a fresh start, but still it happens anyway. It sucks.

And on top of it all I had to tell my best friend this week that I need space because she’s been emotionally dumping and getting mad at me and causing problems too much for me this year. It’s like she’ll literally never get it.

I just feel like I can’t catch a break. I’m sure it’s not true, but I guess 9 months later I wanted to be doing better and I’m not.