I AM ALIVE

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Hello, just.. Only want for at least anybody to see this.

I'm Only 13 years old boy that stuck in the environment that I couldn't choose.
This place is Russia, which is arleady says a lot..
A Lot about environment, but now about me.

I Have Nobody.
I Have no friends.
The people's around dont want to care about it.
Nobody to trust.
Nobody that I could even talk with without feeling like some nonsense..

I Doesn't Matter. Even I have knowledge of: 1⟩ Biology/Physics Science
2⟩ PC Building
3⟩ Space/Universe
It's Everything.. Just doesn't matter.
This place doesn't giving any abilities to build my future on, or at least anything more than.. Nothing.

'Roskomnadzor' [ Just look in the internet what is this, that will give you more information that I could here ]
This is almost the main reason why I'm creating this..
This sh#t is blocking 90% of all potential abilities to use everything that i have.
And I could use VPN Services to get access but..
...
All PC VPN's are impossible to use/download because of these blockings, and of course I could just pay any paid VPN Service but it's still just Impossible.
Because to pay you will need any non-russian payment method, and just to go into the official sites you AGAIN Will need any active VPN Because.. You know why.

I Cant Keep Myself Silent Anymore..
I Am Aware.
I Am Exist.
I Feel Everything.
Every Day, Just A Silent Suffering From Awareness Of This Dead End..

Why..
Why That's Me..?