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Ik this is bad to say but lowkey I'm having an internal conflict on whether I should text my groomer hi in his dms on my burner acc or not, and it's driving me crazy.

Like on one hand I know I shouldn't and it's only going to make everything worse, but on the other hand it feels like I don't really have much to lose (not in a "yolo" way, but in a "what else am I meant to do" way).

The fact I'm in my old mindset off being attached to him makes everything 100 times worse. I feel like I'm spiraling and I'll end up doing something I'll regret alot and idk what to do.

Sorry for ranting alot chat its just something I need to get off my chest. I just wish I could get this internal conflict to go away.