Day 83 Sober and Feeling Worse than Ever

I just turned 30 a couple days ago. I’ve been sober 83 days off weed and alcohol. I didn’t drink very often, just socially with friends. Weed is my DOC. I read countless posts of people who feel better after far less time than me. I’ve been very productive with weed in my life, ever since stopping, life feels joyless, flat and I feel stuck. I really only stopped smoking because my therapist (who’s in AA) thought it would be beneficial. I’ve gone to AA meetings, got a sponsor for a bit, did the first 3 steps. And I still feel like absolute shit. I feel extremely depressed and anxious. The anhedonia is real. Weed helped life feel lighter, more enjoyable, palatable, easier to focus and process, and allowed me to manifest the things I wanted without my overthinking and anxious mind getting in the way.

I think maybe stopping weed works great for some people, but so far it hasn’t been for me. Thinking about returning to tree once I get 90 days. I’d much rather have the vibe of Seth Rogen than to be an anxious depressed and rigid feeling sober person