Why do I want to be masculine in the way that women do it?

So I like generally masculine things. At least fashion wise I like wearing historically traditionally masculine things. I’ve been super in vintage fashion and military and naval surplus. Still, being a cis man, do I feel like something is off. In some way I want to be masculine but only in a way that a woman can. When a woman is masculine (especially queer women) it feels transgressive and cool. I guess masc but I also want to be masculine presenting? When I do it I just feel like an imposter or like a fraud? I don’t feel like it’s the right thing. I used to be more feminine in high school but that also looking back doesn’t feel right. How do I resolve this? Does anyone have any tips?