After 1 year 1 month of the break up I finally removed my avoidant ex from my insta.😢

It’s been a very year of upon trying to get over my ex. We broke up last November he discarded me and since he’s calling March telling me that he loves me but the next day saying that he needs to be alone. I contacted him in September asking him to say hello any time and he ghosted me but he’s been watching all my stories..I kept the cycle going.

.. sometimes I feel like if I was performing for him with the hope that he will contact me if he sees me beautiful or he will contact me again if he sees my life is positive, but it’s been a year and he saw so many stories and he never contacted me not for my birthday, not even if I contacted him directly in summer.

I still somehow love him but then recently I dated another man that ended that being worse than my avoidant ex, was a fuck boy and he was using dating apps while saying that he loves me. I was disgusted. I think this gave me also the strength to say this is enough. I have the power to block and delete too.

I wrote a story on Instagram saying that I will delete it .. and I wrote my number for those that don’t have my contact directly to WhatsApp and my ex avoidant watched. I did this in case he deleted my number and he didn’t have access but then I got tired of trying and trying and he never came back anymore. I decided to keep my Instagram account.

Today I had the strength to remove him as a follower from my Instagram. He has no access anymore to my life! He can’t see what I do and I won’t perform for him anymore. I won’t pick his breadcrumbs views..

He won’t contact me anyway and it’s clear.