31 [M4F] #Online Searching for a woman to keep me desperate and denied indefinitely

Kind of a simple title for this post, I know, but it really does sum up the entirety of what I'm looking for. There is nothing that excites and thrills me more than handing complete and total ownership of my pleasure and orgasms over to a woman who desires it. When I think of my ideal self, I don't think of someone in control. I think of a toy kept desperate and denied around the clock, for weeks at a time, all because it brings pleasure and satisfaction to woman who sees me a nothing more than plaything to pick up and use when she pleases, and only when she pleases.

Obviously, there's a lot of ways for this dynamic to play out, and over the years I've been able to experiment with a lot of them. I'm happy to say that as long as my need for denial is getting met, I've found I'm pretty open to most dynamics I've come across. Whether you're looking to be more hands on or hands off, or want to incorporate your own personal dynamics and interests in, I'm pretty agreeable and will be happy to discuss things together to find what works best for us both. For reference, my main kinks are Orgasm Control/Denial, D/s, Humiliation/Namecalling, Worship/Praise (of you), Exhibitionism/Public Play.

Before I finish, I have a few things that I'm not looking for that I think I should clarify:

• I am not looking for dedication or commitment from you. I don't expect or desire to be a top priority for you, or even any kind of priority at all. I'd like to have a bit of a connection and get along outside of kink, but I want to be someone's toy, not their partner or equal. I once had a Domme describe that she considered me something like an app on her phone that she opened up when she felt like using and then put down and forgot about when she didn't. I've always liked that analogy ever since.

• I am looking for total surrender of control over my pleasure and orgasms, but I am not looking to incorporate cages or enforced chastity. This has been a dealbreaker for some, and I understand that, but to me submission is most powerful and intense when it's something I choose. The knowledge that I could orgasm any time I wanted, and still choose to stay denied because I know deep down what I really want is to surrender is very important to me, and I personally feel like it's lessened when made a physical requirement instead.

• At least to start, I require some level of anonymity. Happy to describe myself generally and send/exchange photos after a bit of trust is built up, but for work related reasons I can't really risk my kink side getting exposed.

Happy to chat more and answer any questions.