Body is physically craving dick?

I’m not far into my bottoming journey, in fact I’ve never hooked up with a guy.. I have experienced countless different toys inside me and they’re all great, but I’ve only ever managed to cum hands-free one time.

It’s safe to say the arousal is there for my self-playtime, but some mornings I wake up with this tingling/throbbing feeling inside my hole? It can almost never be quenched by toys, but the thought of letting a real dick inside makes me melt.

Anybody else experience this? I’m so nervous for my first time..😅