Help!!

I been almost a month clean now from “gooning”(aka masturbation for the OGs) and just trying my absolute best to not upset God from me anymore. I messed up bad and lost my v card unfortunately and on top of that had a pregnancy scare from that first time I couldn’t sleep for 2 weeks and I promised God that if he lets this pass in peace I’ll no longer do these anymore but now it’s truly catching up to me and I’m having crazy intrusive thoughts. I been trying to distract myself and go out but even when I’m out it’s on my mind and I truly need help to get myself to tone down a little. I would absolutely hate to break my promise to God after he indeed did help me repent and let the whole pregnancy scare thing pass in peace. I been looking to settle down and stop talking to a bunch of females and all that crappy life style I had and truly repent but a part of me also is desiring the lusts and pleasures):