I don't want to be involved with any man for the next 3-5 years.

Every time a man enters my life, my peace and quiet is disrupted. I feel like I'm still insecure and I still have some unsettled things with my self that I need to deal with. Maybe it's my bipolar acting up giving me the high that mess up my brain. Maybe it's my undiagnosed ADHD giving me a new hyper fixation to focus on. I don't know. But every time, all my self-respect, self-love and self-esteem gets thrown outside the window. Something about man is so destructive to me. They make me feel like I am everything and nothing at the same time.

The man I was involved with last year really messed me up that right now, I don't want to involved with another man until I fix myself. I have so many goals that I need to achieve this year that I need to focus and lock in. A man would just interrupt me from my goal and would be a distraction from everything I want to achieve.

Anyway, ayoko muna sa lalake. I'd be celibate as well. Lust really make people go crazy. I promise to not even touch myself, stop watching porn and just really really focus on myself and my goal.

Wish me luck!