I need some help.

I'm in my mid twenties. I got my computer science bachelor's degree a few years ago. I had projects/one internship/all that. I never got any interviews, though. Eventually I had to move on and get a dead end retail job for $20/hour. I don't have debt. My interest in the tech world is gone, honestly.

I've been living with my parents. I don't have any savings, I've been helping pay their mortgage. I've contributed around 150k so far. They have 75k left. Not here to talk about their finances though.

Life just feels overwhelming to me. I can't fathom ever being able to get an entry level role, let alone supporting and living by myself. Buying/maintaining a car, planning out groceries/meals and what not, paying rent, the existential crisis of not being able to afford rent let alone buy a home, anything. Life just feels above my pay grade.

I can't even get a real job. I'm in New York City, I don't hear from anything nearby. I can't relocate because you need proof of income to get an address and you need a local address to get proof of income. It looks like everything is telling me I had to randomly spawn into a good paying role. Which I only could've done if I was born to well connected parents.

I just don't know what I can do anymore. Should I get run over by a car so I can claim disability checks? Haul myself off to prison for free food and shelter? I need some direction in life. Please.