need some advice on a friendship about hanging out

so gonna just start typing and see where i will end

im 16M dont go to school but go to a location to get a rythm and eventually back to school or work

no social life basiclly outside of the location i go to

and after summer vacation there came this new trans guy and we clicked nicely and we met up in early november at my place and went into town eaten fries watched a movie from 1pm till 11pm and we bth enjoyed it later i made a stupid joke since i wanted to test boundarys my fault its a bad thing i do that could be interperted wrong 1 thousand ways said sorry kept apoligizing

not we only see each other on wendsday

and he said he felt uncomfortable well after that and i kept apoligizing stupidly enough next week on wendsday the councelor came to me and said he really likes the connection here but outside of here is too much for him right now and about the joke idk what it was but he said he was probally fine with it on most days but he wasnt feeling good

and didnt see him after anymore because i had a few bad days i wasnt there and he finds it quite hard in generall to come and tought i wouldnt it was kinda stuck in my mind did i f up or was it really the reason he said and he would go away after christmas break since he turned 18 like a week ago but he got an extention idk for how long but atleast for now he stays and i was reliefd once i noticed everythign is fine he sat on the opposite side and started talking to me and later he sat next to me and started talking instantly to me

and we can talk about EVERYTHING like somehow we ended up on the subject dildo idk how anymore and he said he will get a present from anotehr friend that orderd it and i said what if its a dildo he said i wouldnt mind that we both laughed and u know continued thats the type of everything we can talk about

and i mentioned if u ever want to do something again anyway u can just app and if not its totally fine i just wanted to say that and he said i know and i appreciate u saying it to me

but he also mentioned inbetween that he went to a entertainment park with another friend of his

which ofc is fine idc if u have another friend and he shouldnt care about if i care about it which he doesnt if u get what i mean

but it got me thinking he went to do something with the other friend and im like to me he said its too much outside u know i just start thinking and cant let it go

there is probally a logical thing like knowing that friend longer and better etc and having another person ontop of that is too much

but idk u probally get what i mean