Am I overreacting? I feel disrespected

Why does my bf tell me how hot women are and curious about boobs right in front of me fame women online a i or breast implants but doesn't look at porn or get turned on. He says I'm like family he loves me feels married I'm his sexy woman who he makes love with and we're best friends too? I asked to marry him he said yes and is getting gold his mom gave him smelted into a wedding ring for me like lord of the rings. I was in relationships in the set with men who were porn addicts, treated me like objects, cheated and were psychically abusive so I became monogamous and hate porn and fake ppl. I'm happy just scared to get hurt by a man again