Yesterday was 4 months of no contact. I think I’m gonna reach out.

I literally feel the same way I did day one. No contact, no social, nothing… it has not helped at all. So what’s the point? I’m at my lowest already. I really wanna reach out. See how he’s doing. I know it’s a bad idea but I don’t care at this point.

My friends will be so disappointed in me and they’re right.. I am ashamed of myself but… I’m weak. We (mostly me) decided to go no contact to try to heal from our very messy 1+ year situationship, but he never said he didn’t want me to reach out or anything so I don’t think it’s inappropriate for me to reach out! I’m spiralling lol.

Anyone else in a similar place ?