Taking resisting hunger for granted..

So I’ve had an ED for some time,

since my early teens, I am an adult now.

As a teen/youth, I took feeling hungry for granted.

The power it took to resist it for so long.

To fight against my body’s biology.

Eating is normal, it is for life.

I have ignored it for so many years.

The same way I ignored those telling me to accept the help offered to me then, as it wouldn’t be there forever.

They were right, the number eighteen makes accessing services so much harder.

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And the worst part is, I have access to way more than many and still take it for granted.

Just like I did my hunger.

I have gone so long ignoring it, it stopped being abnormal not to feel it.

It is harder to feed a body that no longer craves food, than to feed one desperate for it.

I wish I hadn’t taken my want to eat for granted, as now I spend time searching for it.