2026 off to a bang I suppose.

I had been speaking to this guy since I was 16 I’m now 18. And we were on & off constantly for 1.7 years, he always comes back to me I always come back to him.

Today I was stalking his ig and now he has a girlfriend im so distraught because not even a week ago he was texting me saying happy new year & that he loved me & the week before that merry Christmas . I just feel so stupid for feeling this way but I always loved this guy I was attached I did the most. He promised to me he would finally be with me when he went pro in football and now he’s posted up with another girl my heart just feels so fucking heavy. Because he was telling me he loves me not even 8 days ago. I just hate him I hate myself for feeling this way I just wish he fucking didn’t lead me on all this time just to get a girlfriend, tell me he loves me and promise me loads of shit, I just truly feel this sharp pain in my heart, my eyes dripping with tears as I type. This pain is like being stabbed 100 times. My heart is broken: he was everything to me, we even saw eachother a few weeks ago. I’m fucking hurt