Recovery times and making it to the end

Hi all- I’m at my wits end. I had a the cyst surgery on 11/13 and it’s still not closed? I’ve gone back for my follow up visits and it’s been “keep up with your showers” and cauterizing here and there.

I am completely frustrated and tired. The multiple showers a day have my skin dry and cracked no matter how much moisturizer I use. The cauterization has me leaking again for a few days and I’ve never felt so dirty. Even with three showers daily I feel disgusting.

I’m struggling to make it to the end of this thing. Does anyone have any advice? How do you keep going when you feel like a walking bio hazard?