Cravings worse when taking it seriously

I have had a lot of help from this subreddit in the past and have had a few reasonable attempts through motivation and advice received from here. So I appreciate the support and insight from the community

I was attending meetings and doing well and through a few personal happenings, stopped going and fell off a bit. Had a few periods going solo where I was doing well and had less cravings or desire to drink. Inevitably, I wasn’t able to sustain it.

But now I’m back going to meetings and trying to take it seriously and the cravings and temptations are so much worse than before when trying solo attempts to abstain. Is this a common occurrence when immersing yourself in the process? Almost like a forbidden fruit scenario? It definitely seems like the cravings are much worse now that Iv ‘labelled’ 2026 as being the year that I finally kick it.

Maybe the added pressure Iv given myself is the reason, but curious to see if I’m the outlier or not.