Young man started life too fast … #KANSAS

Hell im Trace im a 5 foot 10/11 unsure, 150, and soon to be 20. Ive been in a tough situation for a good while with a girl who ive tried years to try and convince to get out of the bed and just work for something once instead of just using me for alcohol and food every single day spending 300+ on groceries every week plus the alcohol and vapes. Im a CNA soon to be CMA and she has no job never has had one tried to convince her to even work fast food as I did before healthcare to just test the waters and push my boundaries. I wasnt raised the same as her or I guess as most of these girls from my generation that I have met… As I said I need an escape I have no preference on color, age in fact I prefer more mature woman after obviously experiencing girls my age who are stupid im not some stupid other dude in these subs im really trying to get out there and help myself as ive done my whole life to possibly get to an even better place all around in general and hopefully make someone happy who makes me happy. I got a good heart, was raised to show respect, and confidence to be a man just need my woman fr..