Trying to learn this game right now feels brutal

Dipped into Deadlock when it first went public, then a bit when the 4 heroes dropped in August, but never really committed time until now. I’ve been through the ringer before, I’ve got thousands of hours in Dota 2 so i know how it feels to push through the gauntlet of a game like this, but Deadlock is something else.

The lobbies are unbalanced, lanes are pushed in and lost FAST (had a dude parry my tower and send me back to the fountain third wave I couldn’t comprehend what happened) I’m still trying to understand the use cases of the items, hero timings and power spikes, Etc. People are upset when the deaths start to climb, which I get, i don’t want to feed either, but here we are. Maybe i’m just venting, i want to improve but it’s brutal out here dawg.