I’ve developed a kink for getting dominated by people I despise politically

I am a very outspoken communist. I’m a member of my country’s communist party, I help organize a local mutual aid fund. Politics are a huge part of my life, and I’m extremely devoted to the people’s revolution and the dismantling of capitalism.

So you can imagine how troublesome it is that I’ve recently developed a fantasy for getting dominated by a fascist or ancap.

I’ve always been pretty kinky, so wanting to get roughly dominated isn’t anything new, but the political tilt is. I’ve got no clue how this started- maybe it’s the forbidden fruit aspect? But every time I start masturbating lately, I can’t stop my mind from drifting to this fantasy of getting pinned down and totally degraded by the type of guy that I’d be fighting viciously otherwise. I imagine myself struggling to keep my pride and composure during the whole thing (probably angrily lashing out in humiliation as I keep being brought lower and lower), but eventually being broken into a whimpering mess. It gets my heart pounding to imagine having a fascist sneer down at me while he fucks my throat, or an ancap smugly commenting that I “wouldn’t be well-fed enough under communism to have a rack big enough for this” while I’m forced to give him a titjob.

On that note, the whole concept of “political degradation” gets me going to an extremely embarrassing degree. Being called a Bolshevik whore, being passed around a group of my political enemies like a toy (“Hey, shouldn’t you love this? You’re against private property- does that opinion change when your pussy’s the thing being publicly owned?”), being punished with things like unwanted creampies/rough anal for not recanting my beliefs… There’s a lot more that my brain’s come up with while I’m masturbating, but those are a couple.