i think of you

i think of you everyday. When im alone, in the dark and cold. When im surrounded by people, filled with light and warmth. You make me feel so alone but so content. So cold but so warm.

I think of you everyday. When im pleased. If im touching my body so softly. When im filling it with things i love. It reminds me of you. The love i feel in my heart, the pleasure you give me.

I think of you everyday. Sitting in class, the same one you used to come visit me in. I watch the window every second, Waiting for you to walk by. Just so i can get a slight glimpse, hoping you’re looking for me aswell.

I think of you everyday. Seeing you fills me with dread. Longing. It fills me up with warmth, warmth only you can give me. I look for that same warmth everywhere. You i look for everywhere.

I think of you everyday. Replaying our moments. It makes me forget you even left me. It makes the sadness still, filling my head and heart with you.

I think of you everyday. I pretend you still care. I pretend we still speak. I make things up in my head. Situations that never happened, Words that were never said.