How a Doctor and an Escort turned my life around

This will be a long story so if you want to scroll down feel free. But wanted to tell my story (as embarrassing as it is).

I was 19 when I met my first love. We were together 13 years with 1 daughter. Over time the relationship fell apart but we still stayed best of friends and shared custody. Now have an amazing grown up daughter.

I didn't date for a few years as leaving them was hardest thing to do but was for the best.

I then dated a couple of times. Nothing serious. Until I met this one woman. She seemed great at the time. Sadly i had some unknown and undiagnosed issues. This effected my hormones, ED, PE and fatigue. I couldn't work out what was going on. I was not performing. Nothing would work. I would go from horny to zero in a blink of an eye. She gradually got more upset and agressive saying i dont find her attractive etc. I said I didnt know what was going on. Then it got physical.

One time she was on top and everything just shut down. I remember her looking at me and punched me straight in the face and shouting “Pathetic excuse of a man” before storming out and leaving. She came back the next day and said sorry..which i stupidly accepted. Then a week later it happened again and instead a lamp was put over my head cutting my head open. Again she had left. This time I couldnt deal with her and just rid of her via a text message (which i would never normally do, but i didnt want to give her the time of day).

Several angry voice messages and she eventually vanished.

For 12 years I never went near a woman. Not a kiss, hug or anything. I made the decision I was better off alone and was happy.

That was until I stumbled into someone and we had a relationship for few months. Sadly things downstairs were not good. I was unsure if it was physical or mental. I had a sort of sexual PTSD. I spoke to my partner and she was understanding. I tried Viagra - no effect. Then the relationship fizzled out and that was the end of that.

What this had done though was changed my outlook. But how can you work on something like going from horny > zero, PE, ED when you don't have a partner?

Thats when I thought why not find an escort who I could talk to, explain the situation, see if she could help. I felt I wouldnt be judged, I wouldnt feel the ‘need to perform’ and the pressure would be off. Solo work I was fine. So needed another person to help.

It took a while but I found a wonderful woman who agreed to help. We met up and did a trial couple of hours to get over the nerves at first, then see what my ‘performance’ was like - just as bad as ever. The more visits I had the more the PTSD went away.

This allowed me to go to the docs and explain what is going on in detail. I would get some meds, book an appointment with my now ‘sexual physical therapist’ and we would have a session or 2 and see how it went.

It took a few weeks and trips back to docs but finally…after so long I feel like I was so long ago and happy and confident.

My last session with her she actually said ‘no charge, I enjoyed myself and I saw you finally enjoy yourself Fully. That is payment enough’. We had also gained a friendship too. We hang out, make dinner at our places. Go out for dinner or drinks. Nothing sexual or a relationship but a helpful friend.

TLDR: Had sexual health issues. Got physically abused because of it. Stayed single a long time. Met someone, lost someone. Escort helped me with sexual health issues. Live happy ever after.