Trapped between Al-Azhar the Army and a broken heart

I’m writing this because I have nowhere else to vent I feel like I’m living a double life that’s slowly eating me alive

I’m a student at Al-Azhar University You can imagine the pressure of being in such a strictly religious environment while struggling with my identity I have to act like someone I’m not every single day and I feel like an alien here

To make matters worse I’m graduating late and the fear of mandatory military service is constantly haunting me I feel stuck in time while everyone else is moving forward

I’m also dealing with the aftermath of a toxic relationship that left me feeling worthless and incredibly lonely I try to escape reality through gaming or sleeping but the anxiety always comes back

I’m just tired of fighting on so many fronts alone Has anyone else made it through a situation like this?