I tend to be overly critical and hard myself and I am aware of how I can easily slip into a negative thought spiral. It can be easy for my to fixate on something i don’t like about myself, obsess over it, and set unrealistic expectations for myself and then avoid it altogether because up become overwhelmed with those set expectations (it’s a self fulfilling prophecy in a way lol). Rationally I know I am doing just fine in my life and much to be proud of myself and grateful for but I struggle to find acceptance and be present in the moment and work myself up so much, beat myself up so much I struggle getting out of my head and finding balance. I feel like it can also be difficult for me to really trust myself- this is something that just recently has become a bit easier for me but in my adolescence i also struggled a lot with people pleasing tendencies and second guessing myself a lot- this is still somewhat present for me, it’s easy for me to deny my truth/thoughts and agree with others rather than tapping into how i truly feel/believe/think. I’ll note too in adolescence i heavily struggled with my self image and those obsessive qualities i named in the beginning, i would say this is where this all started and dealt with a pretty bad eating disorder around that time too. I want to note these are are things I’m actively working on but just curious if there is anything in my chart that speaks to some of the ways I can be so hard on myself and second guess myself. 

Thank you for reading and I appreciate any insights you all may have 🫶🏻

Why am I so hard on myself