Lost my husband Friday night

I've (41f) been debating writing here, Wednesday morning my husband (48m) came home work and collapsed, becoming unresponsive (I dont want to go into detail) he never woke up and passed away Friday night, Nothing can ever prepare you for this pain and honestly I wish no one ever had to experience this. Honestly didnt know it was possible to hurt this much and survive it. I wasnt going to post, but this subreddit has been so helpful in helping me know there are other people who understand this pain and as much as it sucks, I know im not alone in this.