I am normal boygirl thing 🦄🩷

I feel like …. I need to remind people that I’m not always like this like, this whole account is literally for me to vent to, my life is not horrible I am just unfortunately a very sensitive individual who experiences things way too deeply, that tends to get overwhelms easily. I live a good healthy life!!!! All my relationships with family is good!! Lately I keep getting more DMs telling me they enjoy how deranged I am. But I am NOT! Everything I have written, was me just in my feelings, everything I have wrote down, I meant it; I enjoy sharing my experience, thoughts, and feelings. I feel very alone most of the time but I still want connection and be part of a community. I am aware of everything, I say and speak!!!! I just think out loud!! People in my life tend to get mad at me for that but that’s just unfortunate for them isn’t it? My mood swings and sexual trauma aren’t me, and I know one day I will have a nice relationship with myself and with sex °◦=͟͟͞͞ʕ̡̢̡ु•̫͡•ʔ̡̢̡ु ☏ I have faith in myself, that I will be happy. My anixey and paranoia aren’t me, my nerve system will one day stop bring me pain but instead calmness.🩷🦄****************

The only reason why I been acting up is because at night around 11-12am I keep getting trigger and getting flashbacks from my sa and It been happening since November sobs,,, idk weird it’s like making me repulsed by porn ….. but also being repulsed turnin me on,,,??? Idk I am silly boy🦄🦄

Low to archive that yet. I know deep in my heart despite everything I am pure at heart 🩷 I am loved.. and that is why I will never mill myself. 🦄🦄