Still no sub pregnancy

Found out July 3rd 2024 I was pregnant to my surprise - with premature ovarian insufficiency, the odds are quite low, an estimated 5-10% life time chance.

Sienna was my and our first and we had to terminate due to arthrogryposis at 20+0 on October 19 2024. I’ve somehow found my peace with this.

But… no pregnancy since. The whole world around me falls pregnant, which tends to happen in the early 30’s, but I’ve now had 10 pregnancy announcements from colleagues and close friends since getting pregnant myself.

I take supplements, track hormones with Mira, alter my medication to mimic a natural cycle, but nothing.

The odds of getting POI in your 20’s is 1:1000. Odds of arthrogryposis 1:3000 - though that’s among live births and including less severe cases. Odds of getting pregnant again, 10% at best, or was that my one chance?

What I wouldn’t give for someone to predict my future so I could either stay hopeful or move on.