If god existed he would have made me beautiful

Hi I’m F(17) and honestly I feel like I’m at the end of what I can take. I can’t bear any longer the fact that I’m not conventionally pretty. My friends always drown me in compliments and around maybe four guys in total in my life seemed interested in me but only one was in real life, and other than these most men showed interest in my body. all my friends are beautiful girls who constantly attract men wherever they go. What’s worse is when we are in groups, I feel invisible and disgusting, the guys only give attention to my friends. It eats me alive because when I look at them, I can’t help but stare in aw, I don’t even feel hatred. Even my brother shoves this fact in my face. For the past two years I’ve done my best to build my confidence, did my makeup, wore better clothes from revealing to elegant depending on the situation, went out as much as I could, took pictures etc… but now I feel like a fool for ever believing that I was pretty. even with makeup on, my friend who had none still got approached while I stood there like a fool. Honestly I feel like giving up on anything, why couldn’t I be granted the simple wish of being beautiful. No matter how much I try to distract myself with hobbies, learning nothing compares to being pretty.