is it normal for me to want a squish (QPR crush) even if i don't know how that feels or if i'll possibly experience it in a way i could notice?

maybe that's just my way of being qpr where i want someone to be with for cuddles and hugs without it being weird and live with them without knowing what a "squish" feeling is, but i tend to have moments where on one hand i go through my moments of thinking i'm fine with the idea of just not having anyone and if that's the case so be it.....i then proceed to have moments of being touch starved via hugs and yearning for a QPR. mostly clingliness and hugs.