How to deal with embarrassment post manic episode

I recently had a mini manic episode despite taking my medications on a consistent basis and reading as much material as possible to educate myself on this disorder including 2 books. So it started when I locked my PC in a locker in the gym when I came back the locker was open and 3 screws were off the PC on the right side. This set me off into a paranoid state throughout my university campus where I eventually checked my self into the hospital. This is after me taking a long time off and coming back and I am condsidering dropping out after this experience permanently. I know people say that your education is important and all of that but I have spent months home doing my work and genuilley none if is worth doing if you can't perseve your social life and if that is that case I rather just not waste my time and drop out now and give up on life genuiely. Despite doing everything to try and control this disorder nothing works and my life is still genuinely miserable and always will be so why should I put effort into doing anything really.