Lost my husband two days ago

My husband has been battling mental health issues for years now. He has been on meds and mostly does good. Two days ago, 01/09/2026, I came home from work to find him hanging in the garage from out attic. We have an 11 month old together. We always talked about our future plans. I never thought this would happen and am struggling with this event. Our son is about to turn one, his birthday is right after, we have our anniversary the next month, too. I can't get the picture of him out of my head and I can't stop crying. Trying to be there for my son, but it's hard. Started getting things together. How are we expected to handle all this right after losing someone we love with every breath we breathe?