I'm Depressed

Well, I think it's pretty obvious to everybody that I'm depressed and socially isolating. I'm lying in bed all day in my underwear.

And somebody asks me, "How are you feeling, Andrew?"

And I said, "I'm feeling good, I guess."

Well, actually, if you really want to know, to be frank, I'm feeling tired and depressed. But I also don't want to add any medications like antidepressants. So, let's just say I'm good. It's just easier.

I have some friends and everything is good between me and my friends, but I don't even want to see them really. I mean, I like my friends and I'm grateful for their friendship. If it wasn't for their friendship, I would have nothing in my life. But I just want to lie in bed in my underwear and just rest.

I know lying in bed and sleeping is probably unhealthy... because I just want to be alone and sleep over socializing.

A lot of these friends are cute and a good influence on me, but maybe I've lost my motivation and smile... and maybe I just want to sleep... maybe I really am depressed.... and maybe I need to, as they say about depression, fake it until you make it. Do what I don't want to do. Maybe go to mental health recovery groups, abstain from things like alcohol and socialize with friends who are a good influence on me.

What are the options here? Lie in bed all day in my underwear, turn to alcohol, or socialize with my friend and have a good day. I mean, obviously the best option here is to see your friend and have a good day. Obviously I'm really seeking some romance, but not everything is going to be a romantic relationship and that's okay.

Also you have to get financially independent to get romance. I don't know. But yeah, as they say, maybe I need to get my act together. Maybe I need to. Yeah. I don't know.