I don't think I'm alright but i hope i was wrong

its 2 AM here, I wake up after 45 minutes sleep. I tried my best to shut my mind for the longest i could but I cant. Few hours ago i put my 4 years old daughter to sleep,hold my princess until reached the best dream she could ever have. For many reason I'm at my lowest, I'm falling way too deep, mentally and financially. So sorry to my daughter you probably don't deserve to have a failure dad like me but i love you so much. Sorry i couldn't give you the best things for you to growing up,sorry if i give you the same food that you probably never like sorry to make you suffer this early. When i really need support why is the only women i wish hold my hand tight is the only one who's bringing me even more down,forgetting how beautiful we was since 8 years ago,i know i dont have anything on me right know but is that also mean what i gives before doesn't count? I tried my best but it just doesn't work out. i hope i can recover from this situation,hope i can meet someone from the future and tells me i will be fine,hope god send an angel to tells me this was just a test. I know myself better,i know when to give up,but my princess will miss how bad jokes that i tell her. i will survive.i will

Thanks for letting me share this, and thank you all for reading. Send love to all of us that went through our darkest time ♥️