18f4a uk

I deserve to be beaten really really badly and have my virginity stolen. I’m straight but recently the idea of me having a master who invites other girls to abuse me has been making my worthless cunt very wet. I deserve to be held down by my master whilst another girl hurts and rapes me. I think it’s the idea that I’m straight and wouldn’t enjoy it but my master would so it’s purely for his pleasure. Let her inspect my body - opening my cunt lips to have a closer look, feeling my tits, forcing me to turn around and having you grab me and hold me down if I try to refuse any of her instructions. Encourage her to hurt me and use my body for her pleasure. Let her punch me between my legs and put a clamp on my ugly clit whilst she has a vibrator on her pretty pussy. I want it to be the worst experience of my life.

I just want to be forced to suffer by someone I love and who loves me. I want to be abused but then loved and in so much pain but then cuddled and kissed whilst being told that I’m a good girl and “I’m sorry baby for hurting you but you deserved it. Apologise to me for forcing me to hurt you” so give me aftercare and love me and be gentle but don’t let me forget that I deserved every strike and punch and kick and stroke of your perfect dick inside my worthless unwilling cunt. I want to be whipped down there until it’s throbbing in pain and then raped gently whilst I beg you not to do it but you do it anyway and are so gentle and loving for my first time because you’re a nice man and I’m just a whiny bitch.

I actually genuinely want this. Are there any masters in the uk willing to travel to me, who want to meet up? I want a relationship so it would be exclusive and I want to be spoiled when you’re not abusing me. The stuff with another girl will come later but I don’t want to be warned, I want it to just be forced on me after we’ve met a few times. Eg we meet each other in a hotel room like we usually do and after about an hour of us eating together and chatting, there’s a knock on the door and you open it to let her in and you both rape me together and it’s an awful experience for me. When she is there, my limits still apply, but I have no safe word. If she is beating me, I have no way of stopping her. As long as she’s leaving no visible marks, let her hurt me and encourage her. Hold me down, as necessary. She stays until she is satisfied, even if it takes all night and I spend the whole night getting beaten and forced to pleasure her. When she’s done, you make me thank you both, she leaves and then when it’s just the two of us, I’ll suck you off and aftercare begins.

Limits are anal and scat