everyone is losing weight except me

it feels like everyone around me, like my friends and family, are losing weight except me. most of them aren’t even disordered either, they’re just doing it, and it makes me feel so invalid and worthless.

my younger sister lost a lot of weight recently and now people won’t stop fawning over her. she’s been getting so many compliments, praise, and attention. i’m so jealous and i hate that i even feel this way. but i wish it was me. i wish people cared about my body, asked how i did it, or even told me to stop because i was getting too small.

instead i just feel invisible. like i’m not even capable of doing this disorder “right”. i don’t want to resent her or compare myself to everyone else but i’m so tired of feeling stuck while everyone else moves forward. idk what to do.