Strugglin. Lookin for reasources

I started playing a few months back. No proper guitar experience or anything, and my job is demanding. (Im actually going to start bringing my banjo into work so i can practice more) but im still where i started at when i started.

I started learning bluegrass and love it, there are songs i want to learn that use clawhammer so im stumbling around trying to learn that. I use jim pankeys (i hope i spelled that right) youtube videos and his beginners bluegrass playlist is such a huge tool. The way he broke everything down made it super easy to learn. So i moved on to hos "learn these next" playlist and im just struggling im trying to break down the videos into segments to slow it down for me and what not, but i just cant catch on. Im talentless lol

I cant afford or dont have time for in person lessons due to my demanding job.so im wondering what other reasources are out there, i know tons of people have like a patron with tabs and stuff. Cliff hicks or mason crone comes to mind, has anyone paid for their patron and learned?

Im just looking for better or easier to follow reasources to learn more.

Thanks

Tldr; i havent advanced from where i started and need help finding better reasources since i dont have time or money for in person intructors. Anyone have experience learning from cliff hicks on youtube or mason crone's Patron?