I needed to block my gf but it doesn’t sit right with me

So I (23) have been with my gf (22)we’ve been together 2.5 years and she initiated the relationship and saying I love you, created lists of things she wanted to do with me and made it clear she only wanted me. When we started going out she was in college but she’s been home she’s been home since December 2023. When she was at school she was over 3 hours away so we didn’t see each other much but she lived 35 minutes from me when she was home. She had me meet her whole family, her friends, and I was at her house all the time. But she never came to see me and didn’t even meet my parents until after 2 whole years.

When she started dealing with taking certifiation tests with her job I heard from her less but understood she was busy. But it’s been that way since September. Halloween came around and I went out with my friends the night before I was gonna be out with her. She told me not to come out with her and her friends and was increasingly passive aggressive and reposting and liking passive aggressive shit. She said she was upset I didn’t ask her to come out but said that her response would have been no. I told her that can’t happen again and that we shouldn’t be used to missing each other. We we really weren’t that far from each other. She agreed that that would never happen again, said that I didn’t deserve it and told me how much she loved me.

Come November I would go to see her twice a week. She never came down. When she would go out with her friends she would always have a random reason for me not to go but then would text me and call me all night saying she missed me.

She has a very controlling mother and she was manipulative so she would make her cry, I would support her and she would tell me how safe she was with me. And for context her father passed when she was 9. I always made her feel better. Going into December she said she wanted to get a night out at a hotel. Have dinner with me and my sister. And make Xmas cookies with me and my mom.

I saw her twice in December. We would talk ab her coming down to do cookies and on the day of she would tell me she was drained. There was clearly more distance but she had a full time job. Certification tests. And got accepted into grad school. I figured u should give her the space she needs and not be suffocating. She got sick over Xmas but started talking more around the holiday. I made it clear I wanted to be with her for new years and she kept telling me she would let me know. Two days before I kept asking her and she said she did not know. So I told her I would text my friend and to let me know if she wanted to come. To which she replied “no thanks”

I stopped answering her because it was weird she had no desire to see me after 2 weeks and with the holidays around. It felt like a 180. Granted that day she posted me on instagram… and deleted it the next day. She turned off her location as well as mine. Posted about her friends texting about going to Miami and just being out, free, and single. I was so confused. I sent her a text saying I was confused and she didn’t answer me for over a day. She texted me New Year’s Day with a long winded paragraph about how she just didn’t wanna do anything with anyone, yet posted about all the stuff she wanted to do. I didn’t say anything cuz I didn’t see a response and she later asked if we could talk “right now”. I felt slighted bc she couldn’t be bothered when I wanted to talk and there was a deliberate pattern of disrespect. I said I can’t do this anymore I’m done and blocked her. I blocked her on everything and fogot about snapchat and she blocked me on that. Haven’t heard a word since. I know it’s what needed to happen but this whole thing doesn’t feel right.