Auditioning with a sore throat and going through a miscarriage

TW: pregnancy loss

Basically as it says. I have an audition in 2 hours and I honestly don't know how I'm going to get through it. I have been prepping for this audition for months, and having been looking forward to it since it was announced in April of last year. I really thought I would get a chance to play the lead.

But of course on Friday I learned that we are suffering a miscarriage at 9 weeks, which has not yet passed physically. So there is the stress of that starting literally any moment, and today I woke up with a crazy sore throat. But it's the kind you can't hear when I'm just talking normally.

With how exhausted and on edge I am physically and mentally I have no idea how I'm going to get though my song. And I'm so upset because I want this show so badly, and I really thought this was going to be my time to shine.

I have auditioned for some of this panel before, but last time was an absolute disaster (I totally blanked on the words as soon as my music started, and because I was so flustered half the notes that did come out were wrong) so I really thought I could redeem myself this time and show I am so much better than what they have seen from me.