I can do this all day woman

To me it seems that you want to learn the bare minimum of things that are important in the things you preach about. Again, seems, not is. Because of those things, ive seen exactly that, the minimum. Which is progress none the less. But you get comfortable there, then rave as if you actually know wtf your talking about. It doesn't bother me in a sense that am negatively affected. But bothers me that in a lot of things I've seen, you'd rather take short cuts, than do the actual work. I doubt its confusing, because you know what it looks like when someone has actually put in the work. And depending on the person, you can become admired by it, intimidated by it, or simply fearful of it. Which is natural knowing you as i do.

Like with myself, you realized I had become quiet, distant, shut the fuck off. Instead of actually being attentive to what it meant, you made it an issue of something way out of bounds....why, because you could, and it kept its fault off of you. Sad. And that is what exposed the bs. The lack of work, and just know what the call certain things. And with a certain ear, it made sense...only because they know nothing of the situation or people involved. With all of this said, I don't love you less, I don't blame game anyone for these situations or outcomes. And if you know me well enough if I were to blame, it wouldn't outward. Id look inward, run through everything and find which part i am part of. And own it. Every time. You might say some shit like, well no didnt own it....why because I didn't let you fucking know? And right there is a big part of many things. You want, but don't give it back, not even a consideration of it. So why the fuck would I keep giving you my loving energy, constant consideration in everything I do, let you know where I made mistakes.

So next time you try and say or think I don't, or haven't done work, be honest with yourself. Its so can continue to LOOK as you are putting effort in for validation. Like you have to keep the upper hand. Well sweetheart, I need no validation, im not trapped in your trauma loop of survival that you refuse to let go of. I am the one that sees all this, accepts you in this, and all other light, both dim and bright, with every bit of consideration in everything you are involved in with me, with selfless love. Why???? Because that's what my love looks like, and acts like, soft but steady, quiet yet adapting, and learning to move with the tides, and frequency of everything that makes you you..

I dont tell you things for stature or, wins, and especially not for myself. I do it because I must. Real isn't smooth, authentic isn't indifferent, love isn't convenient. Its everything that should be , whether accepted or not, recognized or ignored, reciprocated or kept. Loud or quiet. Take or leave it, ill still be me. Like ol Popeye says, I am who I am. All of it. If you want yin to your yang? If you want love where there's pain? Then fucking act like it. Becasue I am more than enough, never too much, and made of things others can only dream of. And guess what...I know you are the same so stop faking the funk, and embrace the suck....cuz im real and I give the whole fuck 🖤🤘💯☝️🙃👌😎😋🤫😘🐸