what to do

(17M) I have trouble falling asleep for the last couple of months because I overthink and I have problems at home that I dont think I should be dealing with (financial and an alcoolic father).

For the last couple of days I feel like something has changed in me. I became more socially aware and self reflective. And it started the day after I got very drunk at a birthday party and tried to enter a neighbour’s apartment instead of mine, i fell down the stairs and hit my knees very hard and i threw up at a friend’s place and basically embarrassed myself a lot. People told me that its okay and i just exaggerated with the alcohol but I feel disappointed and sick of me, in a way I have never felt before.

I’ve been having a few panic attacks(i belive) and one time my chest started hurting and my heart started racing and I was feeling so bad I wanted to go to the ER. I feel ashamed to exit my house and meet with people that was at the same birthday party. And I feel like every noise I hear is an angry neighbour coming for me but so far nobody has told me anything.

Basically Im very paranoid, and I dont know how to explain what I feel exactly, but my head is going in all directions with all the worries, and i sense something bad will happen.

I need help. how to feel better? I feel like this feeling is never gonna go away