Has anyone had an abortion done illegally?

Hello everyone, yesterday I went to the doctor for a checkup on my ear, but ended up finding out that I am pregnant. I am completely freaking out, especially because I live in a state where abortion is illegal (Texas, USA). This actually isn’t my first time having an abortion done, this would be my second. The first time I had my abortion I was 18 and ordered pills through AidAccess. The entire process went fine, but a month after my abortion was done, I had some sort of severe stomach pain that led me to passing out and throwing up. I went to the ER and they couldn’t really pinpoint what was wrong (they said I had a cyst, yeast infection, and kidney stones?). They gave me medication, but I never took it and the pain went away, it was honestly an odd experience and I don’t know if that was even connected to my abortion, but I always assumed that it was. Well, I got pregnant again at 21. Completely disappointed and heartbroken that I have to go through this process again, especially since I’ll be alone this time. I am extremely worried that this time I’ll have a different experience with the pills. I have trouble taking pills and am worried that I’ll spit the pills up causing my abortion to fail, I’m worried that the package won’t be delivered to me and I wont be able to have the abortion, I’m worried that I’ll deal with an even bigger pain while going through the process, and I’m mainly worried that I’ll experience that stomach again or develop sepsis which will lead to my death. I’m afraid and was wondering if some of you could share your experience? Specifically from the women who’ve had an abortion done illegally at home through the pill method. I would greatly appreciate it, thank you