45 [M4F] #Oklahoma - Searching for Someone I can Touch...

This is my first post like this, so forgot me while I just go ahead and spill my guts...

I have been married 18yrs to a touch-averse woman with a fraction of my sex drive who only likes one position - bent over on the edge of the bed with a toy she will never go without... When we do play, it's not because she wants me. It's because that time of month is coming and her hormones are driving her, and I don't get to kiss, I don't get to touch, and I don't get touched.

I am cold, lonely, and feel like I'm starving.